Since 2011, I have been partaking in Inktober. If you are not familiar with the month long drawing challenged, it is when you draw everyday for the month of October with ink. Originally, there were rules but since the first Inktober they have all been broken. Now, most people add challenges daily such as topics to draw or the alternative Drawlloween in which each day is a Halloween themed topic.
The original rules were draw straight to ink, sketch for 20 mins. Post no matter what you drew. Nowadays, I tend to just do an ink drawing with or without a pencil sketch underneath. It really helps jog the drawing muscle and keeps you active until the end of the year. Even if you’re not an artist, it’s a good idea to get into a daily challenge to just get the creative juices flowing.
Some times I am on top of the drawings, some days I am not. I do my best and figure it out from there.
Here is 1-15 of my Inktober. Click through and enjoy.
I used to be very scared to do things by myself. This was when I was in high school, surrounded by friends and peers everyday. I would easily do things alone at home but I never thought it was the same when you leave the safety of home. I didn’t think doing things alone at home was the same. It started to change after high school, I didn’t go straight to post secondary and took up a full time service job. As a clerk with no other co-workers on the same shift, it was incredibly boring and lonely. I was surrounded by smokes and junk food, I got fat, I read books, I drew macabre things; I didn’t know how to handle being alone with myself. I would often reach out to friends, asking if there was something going on. I would see a movie nearly every weekend just to tamp down that feeling of loneliness. When I went back to College, I was surrounded by people again and I didn’t have to rely heavily on organized events. After graduating, it was a drop off again and I felt alone. Too alone.
I had boyfriends but it was a creeping feeling that I was going to continue to be alone even with them around. Single, I was coming to terms with it. I started shopping alone, going on walks alone, and then eating alone. It wasn’t until I took a trip to another country by myself with no plans to meet up with anyone there that I realized I should really get to know myself.
It’s not that we get older and are more alone, it’s that we are constantly wondering what to do with those feelings until we realize we need to confront ourselves. Have to find a way to like your own company.
Nowadays, I like being alone. Don’t get me wrong, I still love my friends and family but being alone is just as fine. I’ll start to think that maybe someone should be around but it is quickly gone when the food arrives.